Hi there and welcome, I'm so sorry that you were kept so isolated for so long. That would have an effect on anyone. Have you thought about seeing a therapist to help you handle all the emotions you are dealing with now? If not maybe taking things slow and in small steps wouldn't overwhelm you too much. I have agoraphobia and have a hard time going anywhere. I just do as much as I can handle at that time. Good luck and hugs!