FooZe- I hope you got some sleep...considering it has been 2 days since you posted your reply and I got a chance to come here and respond....sigh....

I think I can only feel it. You are right and Tree is right. I want to say all of this to T but it will be hard. Really hard. I am going to print out this thread for monday. I felt gross and disgusting and shame. Im not really sure why. It seems like I am pulling apart the deepest core of me.