I like your poem. I also write poetry and I find that if I feel myself sliding into darkness that if I sit down and write, sometimes the darkness will fade...even if it's just for a little while. Are you on meds? Do you go to therapy or have outside support groups? I'm originally from NY and I know they have tons and tons of support groups for some of everything. It might help to be able to talk to someone who understands. I hope u feel better soon and good luck.