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Originally Posted by bluemoon
You cant imagine how this is for me. It is impossible. I cant do a male God. I just cant. And I cant do a male therapist. I want to, but I just cannot. I so badly want to heal that part of me, but I dont know how. I want to and I feel so horribly stuck. There is no way I could see a male God creating me, believing I am worthy, all that.
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blue, i so feel the same on this regarding the male God thing. i did briefly have a male T and proceeded to get erotic transference. oy. i have struggled so much with seeing God as male because of my own father. also, i've been told that how we see God is shaped by both our own parents and what we were taught (or not taught) about God as a child. while i do believe God is beyond gender, or encompasses both the male and female, seeing God as a Father really scares me. i guess for me it's just one more thing to work through.
