My dearest great aunt, best friend, passed 2 days ago after steady decline from cardiac complications. My other best bud, a chocolate lab of 11 years turned-up lame in his front leg a week ago and was diagnosed with bone cancer, declined rapidly, and had to be put to sleep yesterday. My mother who has been severely depressed for years and getting worse because of it all is unresponsive now. These passings have compounded the grief already feeling for the passing of all our grandparents recently too over the last year. However, even in this dour time we have been blessed with good news that my brother and his wife are having a baby. So our tiny family springs anew in the midst of it all.

I am a student, finals ended Wednesday. It, in an of itself, was a rough semester. Summer school, which I do need, starts Monday. I am overwhelmed but not sure whether to think, it is either a good distraction or a recipe for disaster. I am making sure I grieve and not holding on to it, but trying to be supportive for everyone too. I have to keep watch on my own meds as I struggle w/ BPD but have been relatively stable for some time. I am tired though after being a care-giver for so many and student too. I guess I just needed to someone to listen. Hugs to everyone else out there who is dealing with the loss of a loved one. I understand.