Just to put out there, this might be a lengthy post, but I'm not sure. So I just want to apologize ahead of time if it turns out so.

Like the title says, I just don't know where else to turn to get feed back and opinions from a wide range of people just in case my perception is just a tad warped about the scenario.

I technically cheated on my husband. It never went past a superficial emotional attachment and a simple kiss. The attachment stemmed from qualities that this person posses ed that my husband does not that I simply adore. The kiss came late on and unexpected. There was nothing more than a kiss.

The problem comes into play when my husband is holding on to the fact that he'll never know if it was simply that, just a kiss or something more. He cannot take my word on it and he wants me to take a truth serum (whatever that chemical is). I'm willing to do so, simply because it wasn't anything more than that. I just have difficult really coming to terms with the fact that he needs that in order for everything between us to start fresh, like a full second chance.

He has a history (and a big one) of being cheated on, and I understand that honesty was a big issue. I know that I broke his trust, because for a week I insisted that nothing much was going on. In reality, there really wasn't apart from the whole emotional attachment aspect. There was only one kiss, and two days after, I cut complete ties from that person.

I made a comment earlier saying that I wouldn't do the whole truth serum thing based on it's principle, and I was playing a game so I wasn't necessarily paying close attention to exactly what I was saying. Needless to say, things got heated and he called me a f*cking bi*ch and that the only reason why I wanted to stay after everything was to 'save face' so I didn't look bad, not because I actually care (because if I did care, I wouldn't have said that one comment) and that what else was I going to do, go live with my parents and be socially shunned? Not to mention that everything that I do with our daughter is seemingly insignificant because he's typically the one that gets up with her in the morning, even though I have her for a majority of the day because of his work schedule. Oh, and because I have attachment/abandonment issues, I'm an insufficent mother because I'm not properly attached to her.

Maybe it's because of my inexperience with social conventions and relationships, but I feel that it's a bit much. I can understand it, but I don't agree. Am I wrong for thinking the way that I do about the situation?

I will provide more details if needed. I just really, really need to have a better piece of mind about this from others' opinions, whether I'm right or wrong about it. Because if I'm wrong for thinking the way that I am, I will concede. I don't have a problem with that, I just need to know outside opinions. Anything is appreciated, but I would appreciate a guy's perspective more so.

Thanks.