Alright so I have been trying to get rid of my obsessive thoughts..and have been somehwat succesful...i have 2 different sets of thoughts and the biggest one has been easier to get rid of...but i am now having them be more intrusive..i can't control themm...when i try to focus on something else i feel paranoid...i feel like i am being watched...i also do not know how to be me....i have focused so many years on these thoughts and living in my head that i am not sure of who i am or how to act.for one i want to be a writer but i ccan't convince my mind that i can do it without these thoughts...cause i nthe thoughts i am already a great writer...also if i try to hard to be myself i start to cry or get really upset..what is going on?