(((((((emilin)))))))))

No, I don't know you, so I can't definitively tell you anything. What I DO know, however, is depression. I know EXACTLY what it sounds like, what it feels like, the way it makes the world and the people in it seem. I know what loneliness feels like and I can recognize acute misery when I see it. So can a lot of the people here at PC, because we've all been through it or are going through it currently, myself included. So I won't tell you anything because I think it's the appropriate response, I'll just tell you what I know to be true: Depression lies. Depression hurts. You're not alone. It doesn't seem like it but depression CAN be beaten. And the strongest people I have EVER met are the ones who have to struggle with mental and emotional difficulties, because I know from experience that those difficulties can make it hard to so much as breathe. Nobody gets it who hasn't experienced it, but for those of us who have, we applaud each other's strength in facing it day by day, hour by hour, minute by minute. It's not easy, it's not fair, and nobody deserves it. You're not alone in those feelings.

I'm glad that you were able to vent some of that here. Please continue to vent and keep us updated on how you're doing; this is a safe space for it.