i cant pretend it isnt going to happen.i am leaving tomorrow morning at 6 am to get on a plaine and go and care for this horrid person who calls horself my mother.she will never be any kind of mother to me and someday i hope i will come to that realization in my heart and let go of that wish.so i wake up thismorning with the usural freight train full of angry thoughts about it and i still need to get up and pack.i havnt done this yet do to the fact that i really dont want to go.i wont go into the details of the **** this woman is going to try to pull on me but im sure that im going to be sickened by it.in all my conversations i have had with her after her knee replacement all she has done is complaine and say how she isnt going to do this because it hurts or she isnt going to do that because it is going to hurt.so help he god if she pulls this **** on me when i am there ill go off on her and that is one of my biggest fears.im not there to be her best buddy or whipping post i want to help her be able to walk and to get out of thare.if she starts to pull this im not doing this **** i hope i am able to say to her then i dont need to be here and pack up all my stuff and come home to my safe life