Thank you both. Its been some time since the post... You are both right of course. I wish I could say that I am doing great... Well - I am doing OK. I have not spoken or seen in nearly 2 months. I am staying now with another friend and helping out with the rent, untill I find my own place. I feel like I am starting from square one...

Its true that I am lucky not to have had kids with him. Though its hard too... And as time goes by I am seeig the bigger picture and the details more clearly. So I am happy I am having this space and time away from home. I dont know if I love him anymore. One minute I do... One minute I dont.... I just wish I did not miss him so much....