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Originally Posted by BlueMoon6
Bloom- I feel the same way- seeing God as a Father does not work for me. I wasnt taught anything about God as a child, though. I grew up in a completely secualr home and I was left to my own devices when it came to spirituality and God. There was nothing spiritual about my family. It was a narcissitic house with every man for himself- do what you can to survive kind of thing. I think I felt very very alone in that world. So alone I cant even describe it in words.
Maybe growing up that way, so alone and feeling like I had no one is what mades a loving universe who knows me so comforting. I remember as a child talking to "someone" and crying. I didnt call it God or anything like that. I was hoping someone could hear me and know how I felt.
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blue, my family was rather similar although my mom was loosely religious. because she never really talked about her faith it was more just "be a good person". i knew there was a God and he wanted me to be good and kind to others. that was about it. the church we occasionally went to was boring as could be and seemed quite irrelevant to anything in life. strangely, i think sometimes there is an advantage to having such emotionally and spiritually deficient families such as ours. i know in my case it did make me search for something more, but at the time i wouldn't say i was searching for God or anything spiritual. i knew i needed something but didn't know at all what that was.
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Bloom- so how do you see God if he cant be a father? I guess whatever the power of the universe is, it doesnt have anything to do with male or female.
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that's a great question and i've been thinking about it since i read it earlier today.
i guess it's not so much that he can't be a father for me but i have a hard time with it. i can't really tell God who God is, ya know.
i tend to think God encompasses both the male and female somehow since i am created in God's image. fortunately though, there are a lot of other images or symbols used within my faith. but when i really think about it i don't know what i picture when i think about God. i have to think about it more. i do see God as very big and rather mysterious but also quite involved in the details of my life. i remember one of the guys at my old church and when i'd hear him pray he'd refer to God as his "rock" manytimes. i thought it was interesting because i know "rock" is one of the pictures or symbols used in my faith and while it never really resonated for me it obviously was something that this guy found comfort and meaning in. i know he'd come from a chaotic alcoholic family so he probably really like the stability it evoked and maybe even the sense of a ground of being. that's a little different from saying mother earth though since we tend to distinguish the creation from the great creator. i think the one is a reflection of the other but not the same as it. our poor earth these days is so sick and polluted i personally could not see that as God. if it is she seems to have a bad case of pms with her violent mood swings of late.
i think you are asking great questions blue. keep asking. while we probably will always have way more questions than answers i do believe we find some.
