Toastwithbutter, I just wanted to say I'm so sorry to hear you're going through all this right now and let you know that even though I don't know you personally, I care about you. I know what it's like to feel like nothing is going right and wanting to end it all, and it's the worst feeling in the world, but I promise you, it WILL get better. I know it probably doesn't seem like it right now, but it will. When you've hit rock bottom and things can't get any worse, they can only get better. Remember that. Please. Please know we all care about you here and you are a valued individual who deserves to live. You're worth it. Please feel free to pm me anytime.. I hope you are doing ok and please call a crisis line if you're still feeling like ending your life. Please?