Yes, nights ARE tough sometimes! I think it's a combination of things- our guard is down, oftentimes abuse was experienced at night, less access to others, harder to distract self with activities. But I don't think you were really asking for reasons nights can be tough.

Though sometimes it feels unbearable, the pain won't always be this bad- can you find a memory or something phsyical to comfort you? My favorite is a novel and an electric blanket, or maybe a sappy movie and a good cry.

Just know that I hear it's hard for you now, and am sending support!!