I was physically and sexually abused as a child. I have been in therapy for 3 years but have never really discussed the SA. I feel kind of numb to it, but at the same time, I feel like I have forgiven my abuser.

I suffer terribly from self-sabatoge and wonder if anyone else experiences this. If I am doing well in my job, I will find a way to mess it up, same with school and relationships.

I am getting better at being aware when I am engaging in this destructive behavior, but wanted some feedback from others.

Thanks.