I can never be good enough. Not for my parents, my family, nor my friends. I feel like a burden to everybody I know. I go to school at a horrible horrible place during the week, then on the weekend juggle my annoying self between parents that dislike me. Cousins that are annoyed by me, and friends that I will never be good enough for.

Both of my YOUNGER brothers have perfect vision, are mentally sound, and have movie-star good looks. I on the other hand... have 20/200 (if not worse by now) vision, have all kinds of mental issues, and while decently fit, not very attractive at all. What the **** did I do wrong? I will never look good without plastic surgery, I will never see well without lasek. I will never have social prowess. So what the **** is the point?

I talked to a psychiatrist that told me I am not a good candidate for anti depressants. That I just need a purpose in life. Well gee, thanks doc, I'll get right on finding that, as soon as I can motivate myself to get out of bed without thinking to myself "I don't want to be alive."