Just to renew this thread caUSE I still believe I need help, does anyone have anything at all to tell me more about my situation?

I am an active person inside, but inactive towards what I crave in life. I try to always be the best I can and everyday is either I step forward towards that or falling behind. I know life comes in pairs and I still want more than what I have. I want to share with you guys as you would with me, and maybe stay longer than just for a single moment.