I can’t believe I went a week without and then in the past four days I’ve had non stop urges that I just couldn’t shake off at all. I don’t know what’s going on, I don’t feel like anything has changed in my environment or in the way I act however I’ve been feeling like I need to escape from something. Something, I don’t know what, I don’t know why this is happening but it’s getting bad. I’ve gotten to the point where I’m so out of it there have been several times where I haven’t noticed that I picked up a knife or something and began to cut. I didn’t realize what had happened until after the damage was done. I’m really scared it will get worse or I will do something more drastic without realizing it. I’m panicked and no one is around to make sure nothing happens. I have nowhere to run and nowhere to hide. I’m beginning to feel really lightheaded.