Hi Marjan,

Harsh is okay today LOL I am feeling pretty strong

I trully hope I am not losing my dignity over him... that would be horrible and confronting at the same time.
I give him more time of my life because the truth is I can't imagine a life without him in it - even as a friend... We shared so much over the years, so many horrible things that we helped each other through... from my drinking to his step father having a stoke... just being there for each other.

My T has told me I am doing the right thing in regards to the Mark situation.. he wasn't just feeding me back what I wanted to hear.. that's not his style of therapy LOL I think that's why we have worked well together to get me to where I am at... he's a blunt and to the point as I am most of the time

One thing that we did talk about is that trust can't be earnt.. it's either there or it's not... and the funny thing is that I do trust Mark - even I am suprised to know that!!

I can't love the one I am with... until I know that the one I love REALLY doesn't love me in any way...

Love Belle xxooxx