Willow...thanks for your response. well, i did discuss the rape for a few sessions but that ended when the counselor said i was hurting myself by talking about it. that is true in a way it hurts me to work through the past because i do think it was my fault. i'm confused. the past hurts me and i don't know what to do with it.

good suggestion to ask my counselor how to get over the past. i'll ask that. ((((Huggs)))

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