I wish I knew.

Last night I bought some software on ebay that I "had" to have. Not really but I felt that I had to have it right now, can't wait any longer. I am trying really hard not to buy a shirt and pair of jeans online. I keep looking at them and wanting to buy them. I have gained 25 pounds since Dec and I rationalize that I need some more clothes that fit. It would be nice but really I seldom leave the farm so nobody but my son knows if I wear the same clothes over and over. Trying sooo hard to resist because I need food for animals and stuff and I am afraid I might spend too much on frivolous things I don't REALLY need and be short on money before next month.

I get such satisfaction from buying something new. It doesn't have to be big. Just a new pair of socks feels good. Is this some kind of OCD you think?