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Originally Posted by Tatyana2009
Belle sweety,
Some points to think about:
-Maybe look at your life script. I sense there is an 'until...' going on
-Maybe examine whether you are afraid of committing. Yes I am afraid of committing now.. Everything feels like a sham when it comes to love.
-And whether your need to control leads to not letting go and accepting that things are the way they are If I have honest answers then I can accept they way things are... My control issues are more to do with wanting to make people happy... My T and I have sorted most of that out. Yes I can make people happy but not at my own expense...
-Try to imagine where you want to be in 12 years time. Then think what you need to do achieve this. Then do it. 12 years LOL Tatyana I have trouble living one day at a time at the moment...
One year - Career wise I want to be an Associate/Partner then...
Two years - Career wise I want to be Associate Director of the company I work for..
Other than my career everything else is up in the air.
I hug you as always my sweet xxx
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Thanks girls
Today was a bad day... but ended up good - thanks to my best friend Michelle letting me vent when we walked
Mark seems to have it in his head that I want a realationship with him.. that I want him to leave her and then fall into my arms...
My arms are NOT waiting!!
I don't even know if I do still love him and I can't make that decision until WAAAY into the future... he would have to actually be a friend first - can't go back and I don't want too.
I want him to face the truth that's all. I want him to finally be happy within himself... not an unsure, emotional, F**ked up mess in his head.
I have said to him today that after the end of the month I reserve the right to hate him... and to be honest I think that if he hasn't done something to prove to me that my friendship means something to him then I will hate him.
I was over it all (still had bad days but I was getting through them) until he sent that freaking message....I didn't 'dream it' he stired up all these emotions again and for what reason?
The only thing it has done is totally mess with my mind and emotions
Rant rant rant rant rant...
I am sick of being misunderstood
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