When I was a kid, when I was naive and had no idea what I was being exposed to or what I was really like as a person, I had a huge amount of confidence. I could get up in front of the entire school at assembly (in fact I WANTED to) and I could make a complete *** of myself for fun and not have even the remotest fear.
Now I can't even use a phone to call anyone other than my mother or my grandparents, my face goes red at the drop of a hat, and there is NO way in hell you will ever get me in front of people to do a speech. E-V-E-R.

I used to play violin, I took lessons at school every week and my mother bought me a violin for my 11th birthday.
Then I found out all our stuff was taken/left at someone's home/sold for drugs, and I haven't played in 10 years. I chose the violin over the biggest choir in Australia, if I'd chosen the choir I would have traveled around the world and been on an ad for QANTAS.

I used to be so tall and thin, everyone would always tell me how pretty I was and that I should be a model and that they wished they were as thin as me.
Then I got fact because my doctor was too stupid to make any effort to diagnose me properly and put me on medication I didn't need. So now I'm fat, have stretch marks, and I'm so ugly. I can't stand any comments on my appearance.

I used to have friends that I'd see all the time, we'd always stay at each others houses and once my friend and I stayed at my grandparents for 5 days.
Since September last year I have had more visits from the police looking for a guy that doesn't even live here than I've had visits from friends. It's taken some friends up to 2 months to notice that I haven't been around on Facebook. Four people, out of 143, asked if I was okay when I flipped out .

I used to be so fast back then too, the fastest in the school in fact. I had so much energy.
Now all I do is lie in bed all day and get exhausted just checking the mail. Yesterday I tried to go for a walk in the bush near my house and halfway through my legs were literally shaking because I just couldn't cope.

I used to want to be a vet, I started with animals when I was 9 and have been working with them ever since. I have qualifications in the animal industry and I even got a sponsorship to go to America to do environmental volunteering.
Now I can't even get a job in a pet shop even when my job program offers subsidies.

So yes, I also wonder who I could have been...