@Sannah, I am trying to. I really dont know where to start. And I really dont want my parents to know, especially him. Sometimes I try to see it in his perspective, my dad, and try to understand everything. Right now my head is just so distorted. All my actions or inactions is really piling on me. I feel everything in what I have not done and everything I lost. I told my best friend about my situation, but she lives all the way in san diego. I just cant go to her house and drown her with my tears. I dont know how to find a good therapist. And im scared to tell that person everything.