Thanks for your responses. It is good to hear that some people can relate. It has been another hard day... I just found out that the therapist I've been seeing for almost four years is retiring soon. My grief today has been incredibly intense... I cried for about 5 hours straight after I found out. This is one of the most supportive relationships I've ever had, and it is going to be hard to let that go. Has anybody else out there had to deal with this?