I worry about something happening to everybody. My husband watches science fiction and it freaks me out. My mind has trouble distinguishing fact and fiction. Does that make sense? I thought learning about astronomy would help. NOT. It just sets up a vicious ocd cycle and I can't sleep. I don't need to know these things . I have trying so hard to break the cycle. I want to know the whole world is safe. Hurricane Katrina didn't help. The tornado that came through here three weeks ago and destroyed homes and businesses and killed ten people in Mississippi got to me. Seeing a vehicle on its side last night after it hydroplaned didn't help. I do see a doctor on a regular basis. He is concerned about me having panic attacks because it makes my blood go up and I am already on two blood pressures meds and a fluid pill. When I discuss my problems with him, I feel embarrassed about my fears and phobias but he is very understanding as a matter factor he relocated here because of Hurricane Katrina. He had a thriving practice in New Orleans. He regulates my antidepressant and benzo as needed. I just hate it that I do this to myself. I want to break the cycle. The Big Guy upstairs doesn't need my help. He has everything under control.