Stacy,

I would advise you to start the conversation after the brief hello's. (Personally, I often let myself go off topic to avoid talking about triggers & spend half of the time talking about nothing important.)

I'd go into therapy with a pad of paper carrying this topic on it ~ and whatever feelings you have associated with the subject. Your feelings towards the abusers, those who were supposed to protect you, yourself, etc. Whomever you do have feelings towards, and what feelings they are. Any thoughts that go with the images in your head? Self-blame or self-hate? Blame? Anxiousness? Anger? Guilt?

Have these feelings remained the same throughout your childhood and adulthood, or have they changed as years have passed? How have these memories affected you ability to trust, make friends, develop romance, or follow interests?

Just some Q's that pop into my head anyway. It'll certainly take more than an hour to talk about it. But, if you can write down core thoughts, feelings, and memories you have ~ and then share what you've written (word for word) w/ your T, it would be great! Don't allow yourself to analyze or critique what you've written. Write it, and then move onto something else. If another point pops into your head, write that down too, but don't scratch out this one.

I can relate to your embarrassment too. That's why I write it down & read it in therapy. I'm sure my face is sometimes beet red, but I still have to let it out. My T never laughs at me, or shrugs me off. He has been understanding throughout, which does make it easier to get into other touchy subjects that pop up in life.

(((Stacy))) You're in my thoughts.