I agree with Rohag. Please do print this page & reach out to a T. Call a suicide hotline, and talk with someone about getting through this hour. People do care. We can't always see that, especially when all we see is darkness surrounding us. But it is always there.

You summed up your core feelings very well with, "Feeling very hopeless."

Three small words ~ they mean so much! Hopelessness yells misery to me. I have been there a few times myself, and do remember it well.

You are in my thoughts. I hope things begin to improve for you very soon. Please do reach out for help.