You should try going back. I am the ultimate NOT TALKER in therapy. I dreaded going for a long time because I know silence would ensue. My T just kept saying "You can tell me whatever you want, I'm not going to get mad or upset at you." over and over and over...and lots of silences where I've wanted to flee the room.

For me, opening up and talking about *feelings* (GROSS) has been ridiculously difficult. Me and my T have had many, many conversations (painful ones for me) of me being conviced she hates me, that she thinks I am a worthless patient, that I can't even do therapy right! I just had one last week, and I've been going there for 2.5 years. YET, she is always the same. She alwasy tells me that she is not going to kick me out, that she does want to work with me. That she would tell me if there was ever anything wrong.

Slowly, that repetition and her consistency has trickled its way into my brain. I believe some of it.

I imagine by continuing to go and continiung to listen, I may believe more and more.

You can do it. Because, I most certainly have been convinced (and still am in some ways) that I won't ever be able to talk about difficult things. There are still topics I avoid, that we never talk about...and if we ever approach that subject, who knows how I'll feel? It is all a process. I can't talk about the big scary things until I feel 1000% in my mind and soul that she's safe.