Struggling more with this- bad am, my daughter was refusing to get up, angry in the car, she hit me while driving so I had her walk the rest of the way so we both could cool down. She's feeling really de-stabilized by these health assignments and though I know better, I just kept pushing for a product around it all, instead of hearing her no.

Saw my T today and spent most of the hour talking about it, and she said I should be easier on myself, but I don't really feel as if I'll ever reach the point of being a 'good enough' mother. Just feeling like I'm screwing up all over around this one. So I'm trying to be gentle with us both, but it's not easy.

A big crying blowout from her before her chior concert tonight too...whew. Feeling like a real slimy jerk- on one hand I know she's doing a great job advocating for herself, but in my head I'm thinking 'why can't she just quiet down and DEAL?"

I did apologize and let her know that I'm doing my best but that sometimes my own stuff gets in the way.