I had been feeling a bit better, but it just went

It feels like everyone is against me and plotting stuff against me, I feel really paranoid for good reason though. I saw my nurse last week - so I was telling her everything and she's looking at me like WTF (she never used to do that) then she said "I don't believe a word you say" - that was really harsh - I don't really think nurses are very empathetic, but she did used to be a little nicer, it's like she sets out to prove I'm wrong

She's either being controlled or she just hates me - I'm going with the second, because it seems pointless to control her just to not believe me.

I see my psychologist on Friday - I think she's sick of me though - whinging about the same things and I don't want her to hate me as well.
I want to tell her this stuff, but I don't want to let her down like - 'here we go again' kind of thing, she is really great, so I don't know if I should just tell her everything is fine, I don't want to be her failure.

It's like they are against me and just going to leave me and the people behind the conspricay against me - they love all this - no one believing me, just gives them more chances to screw with me more, then kill me when they have had their fun.