I am treating the last 5 weeks like a bad dream... I just woke up and have to shake my head to get rid of the bad thoughts.. it may linger but it's not going to stop my progress.

Even though he has not said the words I need to hear and asked for (No I don't love you, I love Lisa) I am going to pretend that he has said that to me.

No contact from my side.. for as long as it takes for me to feel 'real' again... If he wants to contact me then that's okay. I can't imagine my life without him so I'm just going act like I'm on holiday and don't have mobile phone reception when it comes to wanting to text him.