((Kaika))
You do what you feel like you need to do and that will be the best thing for you. It doesn't really matter what other people think really. We will be here for your support. If you need to open up communication inside again, maybe that will will help you. You won't know until you try though. We will always be accepting of who you are without reservation because we need others to do the same for us. Don't hesitate to do the things you need to do to help yourself achieve better mental health.
Sending gentle hugs,
Cris