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Old May 18, 2010, 08:57 AM
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Originally Posted by theodora View Post
"Trust"--rough one. I trust myself enough to join this site and to post my true feelings here. I trust myself to take care of myself (as much as I am able).

I trust that I can understand why certain Meds do not work for me.

I trust that I know me better than anyone else does.

I trust in my bestest friend: The God of my understanding; with me at all times.

I trust that my feelings are REAL...and No one may cross the boundary of telling me"How I should Feel".

I trust that there is, in me, an innate ability to know when someone is trying to harm me, either by words, emotions, or physical, and I trust myself now to walk away from such persons. I no longer doubt that feeling inside of me--I give it full reign. I completely validate those feelings.

I trust my dog.

I trust small children.

I trust what I know to be true about myself, and others.

Nope, I do not trust my pdoc, I do not trust my therapist, I do not trust a great many people...had I listened to myself 4 years ago; I would not be in the predicament I am in.......it taught me a hard lesson:

I Trust Me.---------------------------------theo
Thanks Theo..I guess all my trust is not lost. Thanks for helping me to realize this. Its my moments when Im vunerable to my own mind, ie depressed or manic when I doubt my ability to trust myself, and I usually realize the misfortunes Ive caused myself after the fact. People in this world prey on the weak, and recognize this weakness when they see it. I take full responsibility for all of my actions whether Im ill or not, and guess I would like to know how to protect myself during these times of illness. I am on medication but it can only help so much. Thanks again, you have given me much encouragement.