"I think we associate death with change. Which makes sense because when someone you loves dies everything changes. I'm dearly hoping that what you are really fantasizing about is change. And for what it's worth even when it seemed impossible, that was always what got me out of that place. My lifestyle changed, something new came into it and I liked my new life."

Eloise, thank you for this!! Wonderfully stated and really great food for thought. I wrote this down in my journal to look at when and if I ever feel that low again.