hunny... thank you so much. your words mean so much to me. i really, really appreciate it. ...i hardly know what to say, i'm just filled with good feelings, love, whatever is the true goodness of that which we call love - maybe some people call it something else, and that's ok. i know there is true goodness in you and in me. i am happy that we can all connect through that... it's an important part of being in this world.

it breaks my heart to know that people suffer so terribly leading them to become multiple. it's not ok. it's wrong. it's evil. it's something that i haven't been able to understand ever in my life until i met my partner. ...i could hear about the terrible things in the world, but i couldn't possibly understand such terrible, evil things even exist. i would do anything i could to make that stop. i wish i could make it all stop. no child should ever face evil. they should be protected and loved and nurtured and cared for no matter what. they should be told how important they are and they should be told that it's ok to be who you are and to be imperfect, and you have a right to be safe. every child, no matter what, deserves a safe place to grow, make mistakes, learn, explore, create, discover, love, and be themselves. no matter what! children are good! the world should not tell them otherwise.

i know it is not my partner's fault that she suffered. it is not your fault if terrible, evil things happened to you when you were powerless to stop it. no matter what those evil people did to manipulate or program children to take the abuse, it is never ok. that is wrong. and it's not your fault. and though you deserved better, the world is not always a safe place. no child should have to fight to survive, but i am so amazed and grateful that you did survive. i hope you all can hear that from me... i am so happy you survived, because i know there is a reason you are still here. you are important as you are. you are not broken, you have been hurt and it can heal in time. please keep fighting and find your own path to healing. you have special gifts as a survivor (or survivors).

i am so grateful that my partner survived, because i know it was not easy. there were many times where she almost died, either from another's hand or her own. but whatever she needed to do to survive, she did - they did together. and she's here with me now (i am so grateful! i often feel that i need her, and she and i are so good together!) and i love her for who she is inside, i love her whole self. i love her imperfections. i love her body (respectfully) even though i don't love mine. i love her ability to tell stories. i love her intelligence. i love her sense of humor. i love her laughter. i love her passion. i love her creativity. i love the way she really cares and tries her best.

and i absolutely love all her other people, just as they are. they are all so special, and i am glad that they have all learned to exist together. i'm sure they will still need to continue to grow individually and as a group. there is still some programming to undo, and some worldviews to change. i am happy that i can be in their lives, too. i have had some really special, amazing, spiritual interactions with some of my partner's alters. i love them, and i feel privileged to be in their lives. i love sharing the goodness of the world with them, since they did not see or learn about that before.

i know that some people may learn to grow and live collectively as a group, as multiple. however, i'm sure there are also other people who have different experiences and may integrate into one or a more co-conscious whole. everyone is different. and i thank everyone for sharing their experiences. i thank you for sharing even though it is hard sometimes.

i want to help encourage people to heal the way they need, not in any way people tell them to. i hope that by sharing some of my thoughts and the fact that my partner and i are happy together, regardless of all the letters: DID, PTSD, SI, SAD, whatever else, it may help you see that it is possible. you are good, and special, and unique, and there is someone out there just as special and unique who is right for you. we all are ourselves, imperfections and all. it's ok. we all have things to learn. we all have to keep seeking growth and healing. learn life's lessons. and having fun and loving along the way is so special. i hope you all can find someone to share your life with. my partner and i never knew this kind of thing was possible. i didn't know someone could ever understand me like she does. she never knew anyone could love her as she is. but i do. i love her unconditionally.

thank you for letting me share my life with you all. and thank you so much for sharing your lives with me. i really, truly appreciate it. we all have so much to learn in this life. and some people have had more painful lessons... i hope that i can help share the burden of the grief, since you did not deserve such pain.

i wish you all the best.