Just started and I already feel so welcome!
Your analysis of fear of the relapse is highly insightfull,
I thought about it, and I agree, part of the fear is the relapse itself... fear of relapse
at least I have to take each "bad moment" as a single incident in the midst of all the gains, which in my view, inmensly outnumber the "bads"
thanks again, I will keep your thoughts in mind
unfortunately my therapist is away for a while and we have plans to meet after her arrival
for now, I am on my own..which (and I agree) is good for me because I know I CAN be ok!

thanks for the hug!!!
same to all of you!