I've been with the same man for over twenty years and I love him with every beat of my heart. our relationship has been plagued with problems from the start because he had a drug addiction that I was unaware of for years. We have three children together. He has been in and out of jail more times than I care to mention for crimes related to his drug addiction. He has also cheated on me so many times it's ridiculous. In 2007 he got out of prison and moved 75 miles away fro me and his children. For the first six months I would go spend every weekend and holiday with him and our kids. Things changed in 2008, and he met someone else and started cheating yet again. In the past two years we have done the back and forth game so much it's disgusting. Just this past weekend he tells me he wants to commit to me and only me while the entire time he has still been having sex with this other woman and seeing her. I said 'no' and asked him to let me go and just move on. I don't understand why I stayed and allowed the relationship to continue as long as I have. I've never used drugs, I've never cheated on him, I'm educated, I have a great job, but yet I've allowed this man to control and take over my life. I deserve better and want better for myself and my children.