This is a hard post to make. Recently I have been dealing with the feelings of being bisexual. I was involved with another female, and in all honesty I love her, but now she has moved on to someone else. I can not explain the hurt I feel. Here I thought maybe just maybe I was really ready to admit to myself and my family that yeah I do have feelings for another female, but not sure what Im feeling now. I have in the past had relationships with females, but usually only turn towards them when I am hurting so much in side or wanting comfort. Well so my therapist has told me. Not sure what I am trying to say here, just know that there is nothing like the love of a female, the gentleness, feelings so kind, understanding. But then why are they the most intense relationships too?
Feeling like I need to prove my love for her, and I was not able to do that so she left. No I have not come out, well only to my therapist, and a close friend - but this person wanted me to tell everyone on her terms, and if I could not do that well then it meant I really didn't love her. Feel like I was given an one option and one option only, may have lost out on a wonderful love. How do I get through the pain of a broken heart?
Islander
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