TKS to all who read. sigh. Well, I do feel still a bit guilty as the MD might think I am NOT driving (she said not to..) but my other 2 caregivers say ok... My T and I discussed what I have "on my calendar" and he says it's at the "envelope." NOW 3 more things are begging... I can't do... but I do have to add one for the morning, as my MD wants bloodworkup again... sigh and I had to schedule the DMD because he moved his office and I haven't been able to find it, and he never finished my dental work... so that's 2 more things other than the 3 I can't... but I have to do the 2... no telling what else will come up, as I'm talking the month of October here... I found out at concert practice tonight that there's a retreat this weekend... but I can't of course, but I'm supposed to go for a special rehearsal on mid Saturday... but can't stay for the banquet because I didn't make reservations (I didn't know about this banquet..or the retreat.)This was the first practice for the new concert year. Noone sat near me, I even moved up one full row but still sat alone. I haven't heard any of the music before (though I read music.) And no, it isn't my voice as it's an auditioned choir. I just don't fit in, anywhere. I am so out of the loop IN EVERYTHING - I feel.. always the 5th wheel... grrrrrrrrr