I am a 57 year old male, and a dual stroke survivor. My strokes were 1 and 2 years ago. I am now left some right side deficiency, but walk with difficuly using a single point cane.

My first stroke occurred about two months after I was 'forced' to retire from my job in computers after 25 years of service. That alone did not leave me with any good feelings. I have a wife of 14 years, a 13 year old son, a 10 year old daughter in my current marriage. I have three more grown young aldult children from a previous marriage.

I now feel very very alone and FRUSTRATED. I feel like my world has narrowed down to using the computer, watching TV, and going to sleep ( or trying to).
One day is pretty much like the others. BORING. I have tried various support organizations and they have helped for a while but the 'fix' doesnt seem to stick.
I feel like my world has shrunk to that of an invalid. Most of the activites I did on a regular basis (particularly cabinet making and woodworking) are no longer available to me. I have caught myself thinking one more than one occasion about
suicide. I am so frustrated I dont know what to do any more. I want to drive again but am noit being allowed to. I have passed all the driving tests I need, but my wife will not let me drive. I feel like this is the MAJOR thing making mr feel cutoff from the rest of the world.

I feel like I am being treated like an invalid, because my speech is not so good any
more. I cannot argue my points well, which maked me even more mad. I can stand it much longer.

FRUSTRATED.

David F.