Thanks for the replies

Ruffy - Sorry you're going through stuff with your therapist, mine is really great, but I feel like I'm letting her down all the time and I find it hard to talk about how I feel.
She knows I have a hard time trusting though.
What they don't believe (although my psychologist is nicer about it) is that people are trying to kill me - 2 of those people are nurses that work with my nurse.

My course is going ok - not doing as well as I should be though

I saw a psychiatrist not long ago, I didn't really talk to him though because I didn't trust him, my nurse just made me an appointment, he increased my meds, but I stopped taking them, was going to talk about it with my psychologist (I don't want a different 1)

I guess I should tell her everything, but I'm scared of her leaving me as well, I'm sure everytime she sees my name in he diary - she regrets ever seeing me, I never used to think that.
My nurse had never said that before, I don't know if she just doesn't believe what I tell her or if she thinks I'm lying about everything. I should have asked her then.

Thanks - I'll let you know how it goes on Friday.
Sorry for being all depressing.