I'm not sure if shyness comes with ADD or not, but that's what i have, it didn't bug me till i got out of school really, when i started losing all my friends, because now i pretty much have no friends, and it feels almost impossible to make any, I'm also especially shy to guys and adults...but mostly guys, I'm not terribly shy, but there's things like i just can not make eye contact with anyone, and find it hard to speak up, i also can't dance because I'm worried how stupid I'll look, like not to long ago when i was at a 50th anniversary party, where at there was alot of people(i have a huge family) and during that party they started a train line, i was asked to join in by my cousin who i am friends with, but i shaked my head no, i could tell she was upset with me about it, and shortly after i just spent awhile crying, which reminds me of another problem, i hate being seen crying, i hate being touched or comforted in any way, which I've noticed gets on peoples nerves(along with mine)
but back to what i was saying before, I'm constantly worried about how i look, my face, my hair, my clothes, how my clothes fit on me, how i move, how i talk,
i usually only get people telling me I'm ugly, or a geek or something like that, and only get compliments from old people.

well anyways, i know once i warm up to someone I'm not shy at all, but my ADD still gets in the way, like alot of times someone says something and i don't hear any of it,
i also have a terrible time explaining things, i can understand it perfectly in my head, but then when i try and put it into words it just comes out all wrong, although i seem to be able to talk and explain things online(like on AIM) perfectly.
another problem is my bad short term memory, and because of all that I've explained, people(along with my family) have learned just to not listen to me, they don't let me talk, and when i get in an argument with anyone, my mind is so cluttered and mixed up that i usually end up being called stupid, or a lier, or that i say things without thinking, or that i just don't know what I'm talking about...
everyone thinks i just don't try to learn any of the things I'm talking about, or i don't look anything up at all,
but i really do, i try hard, but i usually end up not remembering most of what i read or talk about, and most of what i do remember is all cut up, i can only bring to mind bits and pieces, and often not in the right order,

I'm sure i haven't explained everything, but that's probably the worst of it right there, i just want help really, I've never talked about any of this to anyone before, but i do think about it all alot and i look things up alot,
but since I've never talked about it before and I'm not sure what kind of advise to ask for, i thought i should just start with naming off my problems,

ok well that's all for now, thanks for reading :3