I know how you feel, sweetie. I was no as young as you but I remember the guilt, shame, PTSD, depression, anger, sadness. Where do you out all those emotions? How do you accept that this is a part of your life..for the rest of your life? THERAPY! Your counselor, hopefully, for at least 24 months, will help you learn the tools to help you apply the appropriate seal. The hardest part of all this is letting go and forgiving yourself for the imperfections, You are who you are. We are all imperfect. I'm now 46 and just trying to cope. My rape occurred when I was 13. I repressed it until 2005. I understand about rage and fear. I'm still in/out of therapy. My counselors keep changing every 4-5 weeks.(LISW). I'm currently trying to find a Dr. Letting go is not to deny but to accept.

Sorry if I was winded. I will continue to try to seek help if you go to therapy. You deserve it for YOUR life.

HUGS, Megan