((((((((((((monty)))))))))))

i'm so sorry that you're having to go through this. i wish i could do something. my offer to PM still stands and i am happy to chat with you anytime you need/want it.

is there any free time to maybe take a few seconds for yourself? fix yourself something good and comforting to eat or drink and curl up on the couch or bed and just be. not sleep and not try to think through your problems... just be and maybe listen to some music or watch a funny movie. anything to help release some of the tension that's adding to your pain.

demand a little bit of 'you' time. you deserve it. and from what i've read it sounds like you really need it.

take care.
-shadow