More ***** today. Woke up feeling good not great but good is good enough. So went and talked to the school all that. Then my husband came home with the mail. I'm never ever going to check the mail again. Everythign in there was bad. First we got 2 hospital bills where we owe them money our ins. did'nt pick up. Money we don't have. Then a letter from my husband's doctor saying she was dropping him because his urinalysis showed darvicet and morphine in it. She knew he ran out of all his meds 3 weeks ago and a week after he ran out his flare started so he went to the hospital and they gave him a dose of morphine and darvicet to take home. He had an appt. with her 4 days later and told her all that. She knew his meds had run out and all that. But she dropped hmi anyway. Then I opened the next envolope and CPS is investigating us because of the whole truancy thing. That's got me paranoid and worried and anxious. THEN........ I figured I'm going to read the news paper and try to get my mind off of my problems so I open it and the first page is the obits. My cousin died. Of course no one in the family called to tell me so I read it in the paper I got today. He was 33 and died from an overdose on crack. And the weird part about all this is it came in the mail today. I don't ever want to check that box again it freaks me out. No electric or phone bill just bad news from every angle possible. I have such a crappy outlook right now