My problem really isn't the friendship part of it all. I know that I couldn't talk to him like I do if our relationship was any different. It's the whole "needing" him. Feeling somewhat dependent. And not wanting to. Maybe dependent isn't the right word. I am struggling with having him as the only one I can talk to. I don't have any girlfriends. I don't have someone to talk to when I am having an emotional day. I don't have someone to just chat with. Just my T. So when something is going on I find myself wanting to talk to him. Not just when I have an appointment. Just whenever. Like you would with a friend. I dunno how to explain it. Other than it sucks.