Thank you Complic8d, Wanttoheal, Justdontknow, DarkpurpleSecrets and Anderson for your many kind words of support and coming along-side to sit with.

Amongst the whole we are very appreciative despite have to do this in bit and spurts and not particularly totally wholly co-conscious with this part. The therapist thinks it particularly may be that she was not know to us in the beginning which kind of makes me feel sad and angry and well relieved all a once. So just trying to be bright and chipper around this is not happening and it takes so much time to face, ugh, not her per se but just the whole thing, if you know what I mean. Just kind of discouraging. What is the opposite of discouraging? Well, I am looking forward to that feeling. I've got all these years to look at. Oh, that I could have figured this out in my thirties or so. But, I am doing my artwork and the other things I do to distract and rest till it's time to address the next thing. It's going to be okay. I can't say enough thanks to the therapists and to family and to all of you here.

We will get there...we must hold on to that.