Competition with others is useless there will always be someone richer, smarter, etc.,etc....than you. How about simply being the best person for who YOU want to be. Ignore what others think you should do or be. Who do YOU want to be; what do you want to do in life? Think about Helen Keller. Wow. I survived a childhood of abuse, poverty and no father, and a 120-year old tenement house with cockroaches ad rats, molested, etc......I am 63 today and back in school after a 31 year abusive marriage, written a poetry book and my memoir, moderator of an abused survivors; group, my paper on abuse is in review, etc., etc......meaning........decide what you want for YOUR life, and then go for it; if you aren't sure, get a good therapist and work on it. Good luck!