James - I too have been in the position. I "luckily" didn't succeed. it took me a long time to try digest what had actually gone on. I had people angry with me, people that wanted nothing to do with me, people lecturing me on how selfish my thinking had been.
All I can say is that with time it all heals. You take need to take stock of your life, investigate what drove you to that stage and make any necessary changes to your life to avoid this in the future. This is in the past and you need to work on letting it go. I'm sure your family is just glad to have you