Hi Elliemay

I was thinking about this last night. I could see (feel) how horrible it must be to feel that something you believed was safe -- something that you trusted was safe, and something that you should be able to trust as safe -- to sense that it wasn't safe at all -- that in fact it was very dangerous. It almost might feel as if nothing at all could be trusted, nothing to lean on or rely on.

(Perhaps that's not right --- that's kind of the feeling I got when I read your initial post.)

Your feelings certainly seem justified, and yet -- there was something there -- also perhaps trapped in the past? Does this perhaps replay a past scenario somehow? The past and the present are always entangled, of course, but -- if that is part of what's going on for you, then it might be useful to think about the pieces that are now and the pieces that were then. (Just a thought -- might not be right.)

Good luck, Elliemay. I wish you strength and wisdom in dealing with this. I always admire your determination to be a good person. I wish you the ability to transform pain into strength and good energy. (I think you do that already.)

Take care,
-Far